Javay thought, what if I wasn't here tomorrow?
What if he was lifeless
and couldn't stay to listen to everyone else's sorrows
except his own,
he never gives himself the time to listen to his body
so when he does,
he has no clue he was feeling this agony of being all alone.
Javay wanted to help everyone else
so he would end up forgetting about himself,
he nevеr thought he would end up worse,
hе thinks it's a curse.
Javay tells himself "I'm not depressed but I have thoughts that flood my brain"
"Maybe because I'm stressed?"
Maybe because he's secretly a mess trying to keep together
but it's coming closer to him being her for never.
Although it's all cool because yesterday Javay
was vibing to some old school,
RnB under the great big oak tree
while the sun was shining
he was all happy and smiles.
Now let me tell you that didn't last a long while because when he got home he turned off his phone.
His mum had tried to call but it went straight to the answer tone.
He kicks off his trainers drops his bag,
walks up the stairs into the pearly marble tiled bathroom,
he locks the door, grabs the white blade soon to be red.
Javay couldn't take it no more the thoughts in his head wanted him dead,
all they would do is scream, yell, whisper and tell him
he's not wanted no more,
he decided to leave and I don't mean the door,
I mean this world wasn't peace to him anymore.
Javay never spoke up because
men are never depressed,
men are never distressed.
But no one would've guessed that they have feelings too until it's too late no one has a clue,
since you can hold it all in.
You can hold it all in until the walls in your brain are no longer thick, they're thin.
They turn to sand making it hard to stand.
Some build their walls back and some don't,
[Music ends]
some walk out the door of the bathroom and some won't.
Mental health shouldn't be overshadowed,
always try check on your friends or speak up when you're feeling shallow.
What if he was lifeless
and couldn't stay to listen to everyone else's sorrows
except his own,
he never gives himself the time to listen to his body
so when he does,
he has no clue he was feeling this agony of being all alone.
Javay wanted to help everyone else
so he would end up forgetting about himself,
he nevеr thought he would end up worse,
hе thinks it's a curse.
Javay tells himself "I'm not depressed but I have thoughts that flood my brain"
"Maybe because I'm stressed?"
Maybe because he's secretly a mess trying to keep together
but it's coming closer to him being her for never.
Although it's all cool because yesterday Javay
was vibing to some old school,
RnB under the great big oak tree
while the sun was shining
he was all happy and smiles.
Now let me tell you that didn't last a long while because when he got home he turned off his phone.
His mum had tried to call but it went straight to the answer tone.
He kicks off his trainers drops his bag,
walks up the stairs into the pearly marble tiled bathroom,
he locks the door, grabs the white blade soon to be red.
Javay couldn't take it no more the thoughts in his head wanted him dead,
all they would do is scream, yell, whisper and tell him
he's not wanted no more,
he decided to leave and I don't mean the door,
I mean this world wasn't peace to him anymore.
Javay never spoke up because
men are never depressed,
men are never distressed.
But no one would've guessed that they have feelings too until it's too late no one has a clue,
since you can hold it all in.
You can hold it all in until the walls in your brain are no longer thick, they're thin.
They turn to sand making it hard to stand.
Some build their walls back and some don't,
[Music ends]
some walk out the door of the bathroom and some won't.
Mental health shouldn't be overshadowed,
always try check on your friends or speak up when you're feeling shallow.
( Nik-CMP )
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