[Lyric] I Want to Have a Garden (Flora ElmColone)

Looking out the window
I can see the neighbor's yard
Playing with their children
They're like a greeting card
The woman sends condolences
The man says "get well soon"
The brother has his birthday
On a perfect afternoon

Where do I fit in?
What would my card say?
The buyer, not receiver
Of "Happy Mother's Day"

Somewhere in between
A mother and a daughter
Before you've learned to swim
You are thrown into the water
Both distant horizons
So very far from either
When does temporality
Let you take a breather?
I see my life in pictures
Shown 20 years from now
Sitting in the hallway
Of the house I've bought, I don't know how

I want to have a garden
But first I need a yard
My apartment has a stairwell
With pretty iron bars
And I wanna fall in love
But first I need to know
Will this sadness ever leave me?
Am I ever gonna grow?

I wanna be a picture
Or a slogan on a card
And I love the city skyline
But still, I want a yard

Sometimes on the bus
When I'm on my way to work
I read a touching book
With a secretive smirk
And I feel just like an actress
On someone else's screen
The performance of a lifetime
This is my favorite scene
I wanna be a character
That someone wants to be
Every role I play
Becomes a part of me

Panoptical illusion
Validates my hunger
For a storyline where I'm
Always five or ten years younger
I feel a deep discomfort
With being in the present
It just feels all too temporary
All too unpleasant

I wanna be a character
Or a slogan on a card
I wanna be a picture
That I look at in my house that has a yard