[Lyric] Insert Meaning (Coach Filth)

Hook:
Had to take a trip, n break a leg/
To reach the sky, laid in bed/
Learn to feel alive but the pain ain't dead/
I coulda lost my mind, used my brain instead/

Verse 1:
Having mixed feelings, so I pour it straight/
Wonder what it takes for it to fall in place/
Try a couple drugs, always more to taste/
Blow my time, spend my money, always more to waste/
Dealin with a lifetime of problems/
Lucky the green been mean, like a goblin/
Had to leave my shell, pumped up, riding shotgun/
Copped too many hidings so im hiding when the cops come/
Got picked up thеy wanetd names, i nevеr dropped one/
No hiccups, im splittin flames, still this just not fun/
Cash i got none/
Blazed with the bot rum/
Acid on tongue/
Dead but im not done/
Didn't think I'd ever hate you, now I make do to see the day through/
I stay true, you tryna play who, we ain't on the same page, can't fit in blakes shoes/
Cigarettes n big regrets, I been in debt/
Still workin out all the ish i ain't figured yet/
King on the sesh, bling on my flesh, place bigger bets/
Sick of the mess, the beat all that be bringing me breath/
I been rare, these dudes done well, actin too tough/
Bullied on the bus, busted up bullies as i grew up/
One life to live so come find me with two cups/
I know people that would shoot up a joint just to shoot up/ ugh
To hold it down i gotta get turnt up/
Burn bucks, still theres double Es in my worst stuff/
These nerds...? school didn't learn much/
Teachers always called me up, I wasn't concerned, fuck/
Hook:
Had to take a trip, n break a leg/
To reach the sky, laid in bed/
Learn to feel alive but the pain ain't dead/
I coulda lost my mind, used my brain instead/